“…you are dishonest with yourself, and that is an assault upon your own character.”
A million ideas in my mind Still unresolved I just have to accept I don’t know you.
It was fear It was the uncontrollable fear
That things weren’t okay That you were hurting That something was going on in your life And you wouldn’t open it up to me
The fear of being incapable Not able to comfort you Not able to know what is going on
The fear of your tears Your pain Your sadness You just not being happy
I have always known there is more to you, then the happiness you exhibit Someone isn’t as deep, profound and able to see the world the way you do, Love the way you do
I also realized how you don’t like pain, I wondered if you avoided people that were sad
And I was trapped unable to know Unable to encourage you To hold your hand To wipe your tears
But I know that I have to accept where you are at I can only pray and hope you are okay
Never completely knowing. What was going through your head.
I won’t give up on us. I will wait.
I am still here, I will still be your friend
I ask you to trust me
Im feeling a little lost
As the permanent pain that you’ve caused inside my head slowly seeps away, you come back to remind me that the surreal place ive created my life to be inside my head is untrue. Stop going away, I wish you would stay.